I am...

sitting here blogging. So ok, this thing with Hamlet.  Like the last thing we watched in class was about polonius and claudius setting Hamlet up to see if he was "mad for Ophelia's love".  Am I right? DO you guys ever just ponder life? I mean like really?  I am a Christian and I know God is in control of my life, and He will direct me where I He wants me to go in His perfect timing.  And I realized lately that He is trying to teach me something.  (By the way, for those of you actually reading this, I know I randomly and suddenly switched from talking about Hamlet to talking about this but just bare with me.  Thanks.  Ha.)  But anyway.  Here is what God has been trying to teach me.  As for right now in my life, I do not know for sure what I want to do.  I have some ideas about things, but nothing set in stone.  I'm working toward my associate in science right now because I wanted to transfer to a 4 year college and major in psychology there, and then go on to be a Christian psychologist.  Ok. So that was the original plan.  But, now I don't know what to do.  Really, what it is, is that I don't know what God wants me to do.  Because I mean, there are so many other options out there.  I could do ANYTHING.  I could be a hairdresser.  And the reason I say that is because my mom is a hairdresser, and I am good at doing hair.  I've fixed, cut, and highlighted my friends' hair before.  And I am good at it.  I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but I'm just saying.  I don't know if God wants me to do that though.  Because I think psychology is interesting.  I don't like my psychology class this semester very much, but that's a different story.  I just don't know what to do.  Ok well, on top of this stuff, 2 people that I know of are for sure taking summer classes.  And I feel bad for not taking summer classes. But, really, what's the point in my taking summer classes when I don't know what to do?  Like, I don't want to go to this school again next year, but I don't where to go.  I don't know if I want to go to a cosmetology school, or go to central piedmont.  I'm just not sure.  But the thing God has been teaching me is that, He does not want me to be concerned with what I am going to do.  He wants me to be concerned with growing closer to Him. Of course, He could show me what he wanted me to do so I could go on with my life, but I think I would be too focused on reaching those goals and working toward them , that I would lose my focus on God.  You see what I'm saying?  And I know, in His perfect time, He will reveal His plan for my life to me.  I just have to be patient and trust Him. And I need to get to the point where I actually don't care what I do with my life, as long as it is according to God's will. I need to learn to say "Not my will, but Your's be done, Lord."  Anyway.  I'm tired so I am going to have my devotions and get to bed shortly after.  If all you Christians could pray for me, that would be great.  See you guys Monday.

Erika