>:(

Ugh. I hate everything right now. I've wasted my summer by sitting around and not doing anything even though I said I was gonna read but I didn't. And it's it's too stupid late to do anything about it now because it's Tuesday night and I start school this Monday. What sucks is that this is the last summer I will ever have because I'm starting cosmetology school and then when that's done it's like that it's I'm done. I start my career then. So this was it. This is the last summer ever. The only consolation I have is knowing that right when I do start my career working for some beauty place, it may not be full time and I'll have some time to read. Ok so there's that. Then there's the fact that I feel stupid because here are all my friends out there in college working toward real jobs. And I know being a hairdresser is a real job, but I mean jobs that actually take some amount of education. I feel like cosmetology school is this cop-out job that you do when you don't want to learn or take the time to learn anything. And here's courtney going to be a nurse, and rachel going to be in medical sonography , and I just thought of Chris who wants to be a medical missionary. I mean yeah there's me and meghann and lauren all going to cos school together, but I still feel like people think I'm stupid. I feel like I need to prove to people and maybe even to myself that I am somebody. That I'm not this dumb cos school ditzy stupid person who isn't smart. Though I feel like I am that way. I feel like I'm not smart. Courtney is smart and I hate it. I feel like she thinks she's smart and I'm dumb and she looks down on me. And ok maybe she doensn't and maybe it's my own personal insecurity. But I feel like she doens't like me and she thinks I'm annoying and she looks down on me because she's smarter than me. I wanna go to actual school and major in psychology and be a psychologist. I do. And I was thinking, maybe I can do that later in life. Like, since I don't have a job, maybe I can go to cos school and get my liscence and do hair and make money doing that while I go to school for psychology. I just feel really dumb. I didn't even take the SAT. I have yet to take it. It's because I'm stupid and how would I ever get into a good college anyway I'm just one of those idiots who goes to community college. Community crap college. I feel so stupid. Ok and then there's the whole thing with my birthday being like a week and a half away. Like my mom informs me that she is going to give me 100 dollars for my birthday. And that's for anything and everything. like she said i could have a party, or if i didn't want one she'd give me the hundred dollars. Can u believe that? ok i my sound selfish but I wouldn't even go shopping if I only had $100 to spend. $100 dollars buys SQUAT in this day and time. It's like woo let me go buy a couple of freaking SHIRTS!!! my gosh. and she seriously means it too. like i told her i decided that i wanted my camera fixed for my birthday and she goes "what if it costs more than a hundred dollars?"  CAN YOU FREAKING BELIEVE THAT?!?!?! she honestly asked me that question. like i have no doubt if they went to get it fixed and it costed more than a hundred dollars she would make me pay the rest or i wouldn't get my camera back. and keep in mind THAT'S ALL SHE'D GET ME!!! like i seriously wouldn't get ANYTHING else for my birthday. just my stupid camera fixed which should work anyway. i hate everything. i seriously so. I'm pissed and i hate every freaking thing. 

thoughts about "other things"

ok so here's the thing. When I posted that last blog, did I say something about perhaps liking Matt? Because, if I did, then let me just take that right back. I thought that maybe I could like him, because I had been texting him and he wasn't annoying me. But the thing was, it's because I wasn't face to face with him. How did I figure this out? Well, because their church has revival this week and I went last night, and I met him in Marshville and I rode with him to church. So yeah. And he annoyed me. Like here's what he does... He'll say stuff and he apparently thinks it's funny, so he laughs at it, but he's the only one laughing, because it's really not that funny. And it's like no. You need to hush. But yeah. As far as a friend to text and stuff, he's fine. Lol. But yeah. So anyway, bleh. ok well I guess I'll talk to you later. 

Mission trip to Mississippi... and other things..

ok so i’m sitting here typing on my computer because I feel like it. I could normally go on my blog and tell about what I’m feeling, but unfortunately there was a big fat storm last night and it knocked out the internet. STupid. But whatever, I’m going to talk like I’m updating my blog. So, recently, my friend Lauren came back into my life. I knew her from volleyball. Her team played against mine. ANyway, she came to my church. I spent the night with her one night and went to a rodeo with her. Hahaha. Yeah. For real. A rodeo. It was actually interesting. SO anyway. Then her mom asked me if I wanted to go on a mission trip with them that their church is going on. They were going to Mississippi. So I didn’t know what to do because I could go because I didn’t have to pay for anything. The trip was payed for. All I had to pay for was food on the way up there and back. But I didn’t want to go. But I prayed about it and God showed me that I should go. SO I went, but I still didn’t want to. I was dreading going. But I ended up going and having this awesome time and being so glad I went and not even wanting to go home. SO here’s what happened. I ended up having the nick name “Mo” down there because there was this other girl named Erika there and it was confusing when people would call her and I thought they were talking to me. So anyway, my friend Kaitlyn came up with it. Me and her and Lauren were standing around talking and she found out Lauren’s middle name was Jo. Then she asked what my middle name was and I said Morgan and she goes “MO!” and laughs. Lol. SO that’s how that happened. ok well Kaitlyn and her brother, Matt, are actually Randy Travis’ niece and nephew. And Matt started liking me. But he is very very very country. And, I am so not into that. But he would flirt with me and stuff. Like when we swam in the ocean, he would pick me up and throw me back into the water. Then one time I was actually on the shore, and he came and picked me up and carried me into the ocean and put me down. Then another time I was walking outside the church where we stayed talking on the phone with my mom, and he came up behind me and just picked me up and carried me around. Lol. So my friend misty told me that he liked me and wanted to ask me out. But I told misty that I don’t like him that way and that he’s not my type. So she told Matt not to ask me out, but he told her that he was still going to ask me anyway. So, the last night we were there, Matt asked me out. He asked me if I wanted to do something the Sunday after we got back from the mission trip. And really I made excuses because I could have done something with him Sunday afternoon after church, but I told him I had to do lights at my church Sunday morning and Sunday night and that I might go to snap after that. And then he asked about Monday night. Lol. So I farted around and didn’t answer him and then it was time to go to bed and he told me that I could answer him the next day, and I just said that it was sweet that he wanted to do that, but that I honestly didn’t want to and that I wasn’t trying to be hateful. And he was like that’s ok. So yeah. But we have been texting ever since we got home, and it’s really weird. Like I’m trying to figure out if I might like him a little bit. seriously. Maybe it’s just because I’m lonely. But he has the ridiculous mustache that I hate. I mean he might actually be cute if he didn’t have that disgusting thing on his face. Like I wonder what he looks like. But the thing is, I wouldn’t ever want to actually go out with him because I would be too ashamed to be seen with him. HAHAHAHA. I know that’s so bad and mean, but I mean he is so far from my type that it’s not even funny. I mean I would be embarrassed to be seen with this mustache-clad, country, big-belt-buckle-wearing, guy. Sorry. But yeah.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can't figure out my brain right now. I am so glad God knows what's going on. Man things are confusing. Ok so that last blog was about my manicure and that guy I met. SO here I am, with that happening with this guy, and guess who shows up in the picture... again? C. Yeah that's right. It's him. I'm only using the letter of his name for secretive purposes. Because... yeah. Anyway. SO he shows up again. And that's not all. I thought he had a girlfriend, and he did, but he informed me that they broke up about a week earlier. hahahahah. Man. This is sooooo interesting. ISn't it? anyway... yeah. and he acts kinda like he wants me to think that he likes me. hahahaha.  ok so anyway... talk to you guys later.

oh boy....

ok I have decided to blog because I feel like typing. Also I have things to talk about as well. First of all, tonight my family went out to dinner, and we went to the captain's galley. It's a seafood place. Anywho. So I saw this dude when we went in there, and he was pretty cute. He was super super tall and he reminded me of Andrew Talbot because he had this baby-face. Anyway. So he ended up being our waiter. And he was nice, but shy. He was quite. Anyway, I overheard him talking to these people at this other table that he was also taking care of and the table was right next to ours. I heard him talking about school and I heard him say he had been to all different kinds of schools like public school and private school, but I also heard him say Christian school. Ok well, I was like hmm. So I told my mom I heard him say that and of course we had already realized that he was cute (haha). and she told my dad. Ok well I was like thinking, and I didn't know how I was going to say anything, but I really wasn't planning on asking him about it. ANyway, he came back to our table for whatever, and my dad was like "oh, I didn't mean to eavesdrop on your conversation but I heard you say you went to CHristian school" and he's like "yeah" and my dad's like "where" and he told him it was some place, but it was like out of state. we kept talking and he informed us that he had moved around a lot to different states. and he said that his parents were missionaries! i was like oh! haha and he told us he is home from college for the summer and that he was actually looking for a church to come to while he was down!!! :DDDD  so anyway, of COURSE we told him about Lee Park and he might call us so we can tell him how to get there because he lives in waxhaw and doesn't really know his way around monroe. MAYBE. lol. but anyway. he is also going to school for education and history. like he wants to teach high school or middle school history. I thought that was cool. Anyway. He is really cute. We asked if he had a facebook and he said he didn't. he said he used to have one but he deleted it. he also said something about "my girlfriend" so who knows? but anyway, that was really cool that we met a fellow-Christian (at least I assume he's a Christian, but you know). So that was that. Ok, now I have to tell you about what we did after that. I have never in my entire life had my nails done professionally. Seriously. I'm like almost 19 stinking years old and never had a manicure. So momma took me and natalie tonight to get our nails done. WELL, let me TELL you, it was so cool. That lady did my nails up right. She fixed them and put this cuticle gel stuff on them to soften the cuticles so she could push them back and trim them off and she put my hands in these little heated pouches. It was cool. I probably sound like a dork saying what she did because it's like duh, of course she would do that if she's giving you a manicure, but you have to keep in mind that I have never had this done before. It was all new to me. SO anyway, well natalie got a manicure which was $12 and I got this nail art stuff and I didn't mean for it to cost all this much more, but mine was $20, but they are CUTE! and momma got a french pedicure, so altogether momma spent $57. I was like dang. But she said it was okay because we splurged. Ok so now I am going to describe my nails to you. On  all my fingers except my ring fingers, I have this green polish and this pink polish that looks like zebra stripes and then this silver glittery stripes she put down them. On the ring fingers, I have a kind of diagonal line between my nail where half is that green color and the other half is white, then down the white part of those nails, she did black zebra stripes and the silvery glitter. You should SEE THEM. They is CUUUTE! SO anyway. Yay. my first ever professional manicure. And I'm 18 stinking years old. HAHHAHA ok well anyway that was the latter part of may day. I felt like typing on my computer, so I blogged, plus, like I said, I had those things to tell. lol.

ANway, I'll blog some more later.

Erika

Yay. Guess what? I'm blogging again.  Woo hoo.  Ok so have you guys ever heard of Owl City? My friend got me hooked on them and they beast. Actually I shouldn't say them, I should say him because it might just be one guy who sings. Anyway, I don't know what his name is but yeah. They beast. Ok so I am going to go now. Talk to you people latah!

Erika

ok so..... I don't know if anyone gets on here anymore, or if anyone is paying attention to me but I don't care!  I want to blog, so I am blogging. Not that anyone paid attention to me anyway, but whatever. Ok so guess what? It's like Friday morning like about half an hour after midnight. So no I have not gone to bed yet. Ha. But anyway.  This is not just any Friday. This is the first Friday of the summer!!! YES, my dears! It is summer-time!  WOOT!  I made it through Monday - the last day of class. I had a quiz in my World Civ class, and the wonderful awesome Hamlet paper and efolio due in Ms. Frailly's class......  Ok why am I talking about class?  I am out of class! It is the summer!  Oh goodness! Woo! lol. Maybe it's just habit.  haha. Ok so what do I want to talk about?  I have yet to do anything this summer. I have applied for a job and slept late but that about covers it for stuff out of the norm. Oh wait, today I colored the bottom of my hair blonde.  Yeah. Pretty cool! i want more though. More blonde!  I want it to look pretty out there.  haha. But yeah that's me.  I am about to take a shower, and then have my Bible time and go to bed. I have to finish another application tomorrow. Job app that is. It's for CVS.  I wonder if Ross will call me... or CVS???  Hmm..   Guess we'll wait and find out, but I might keep you updated. lol. Ok so I know I blog about random things but sometimes I feel like typing to that's why I'm going to keep my blog.  Wonder what people are doing this summer? I know some people are taking classes.... help them.  Lol. I might go crazy if I knew I had to do that. Ugh.  But anyway... Ok well ttyl

Erika

Ok seriously...

I HAVE to start blogging more.  Funny story: This girl told me that she didn't do so hot on her papers in Frailly's class last semester, but she blogged like all the time so she got a good grade.  Hopefully that's what I'll be able to do.  I just basically have to blog all the time. Haha. Ok so phew!  I had a presentation to do today in my computers class, so that's over with.  It was like at the beginning of the week and I felt like school was never going to end.  Do you guys ever feel like that? You know, in your head, logically, that school is not a long way off from being over and from the summer being here. But, you feel like it is NEVER going to end.  And I mean NEVER.  It feels like it seriously is never going to get here. Ok well that's what I felt like at the beginning of the week. Maybe because I had this presentation to do.  But now the presentation is over! YAY!  And I don't feel like that school is seriously never going to end.  Lol.  I don't feel as discouraged as I did at the beginning of the week. I know school is going to end, but it's still over a week away from being over. I know it's only one week and that week will go by uber fast. But, knowing all the work I have to do is like ugh. I mean, it's not like I have all this stuff to do and I can never get it done, but still. You know what I'm saying?  Ok here's what I have to do. (It's good to write out these things that I have to do. haha)

1. Take home test for psychology class

2. Homework for World Civ class

3. Final for World Civ class

4. Study for a quiz for World Civ class

5. Hamlet paper for English

6. Eportfolio for English

7. We're doing a reflection for English, right?

8. Study for final in computers class.

Wowo, ok so yeah. I might write this stuff down.  I still don't know all about the eportfolio, but I think i'm going to try to do that right now.   :)  Ok ttyl

Erika

Oh crap.

Ok well, today I did not go to class because I was tried and wasn't feeling the best in the world. I decided that I would go home also because I did not have a revision for today, and I didn't know we were supposed to have one. So I didn't have one and therefore thought reasoned that since I did not have a revision, Ms. Frailly could not very well help me with it, could she? SO I decided to go home. SO I went home and I took a nap which was good. Well, good except for the fact that I had a weird bad dream, but whatever. Lol. But the reason I say oh crap is because I saw Sydni's blog that said that Ms. Frailly brought the laptops in today and you jokers started working on your e-portfolio's.  That's not fair! Ellen told me that we were going to be doing that on Wednesday. Well, maybe it will be like other times and you guys weren't able to do it all in one day and ya'll will have to keep working on it Wednesday which means that I can get Ms. Frailly to help me.  But whatever.  This blogging thing is a good thing to do when you know you should be doing schoolwork, but you don't feel like it, but you can actually do this because it is schoolwork. HAha ok well bye

Erika

At church...

Ok so here I am blogging and sitting at church.  Yep.  I got to keep the kiddies at six thirty and it's six fifteen.  Yeah, I know I just totally spelled out those times. But I did it so it would take up more space. HAHAHA.  But anyway. So how are you guys feeling about this awesome Hamlet paper? Pretty awesome right? Lol.  Seriously though.  I don't know how well this paper is going to be.  Liz was saying today that it was like we spent time on these other papers and now we have like about 2 weeks left and we don't have a bunch of time to work on this paper. And she was like it's like we do the best we can. Lol.  But anyway.  Ok, I'm about to go now.  So I'll see you jokers next week. 

Erika

Wii!

ahh ha.  lol  Ok. I'm sitting here in the living room doing some schoolwork and stuff while my parents play golf on the wii.  They got the wii for my sister, and I'm glad they didn't get it for me because I never play it.  Haahahahahahaha.  Ok I was laughing at my dad. He tried to get the ball in the hole and it didn't go in. It went right past it and he said something funny.  Ok.  Anyway.  So what did I do today?  Ok well, I went to class this morning.  Computers class. Yeppers. Man, so we have this awesome project we have to do in that class. It's the final project. We have to write a 3 to 4 page paper.  But it's ok because the works cited page counts as one page.  So yeah, not so worried about that. But anyway. Ok well I'm going to go now, because my laptop is running on reserve battery power and it says it's going to go to sleep in a few minutes.  So I'm going to get off of here before it does. Mkay, bye.

Erika

And.....

I'm waiting for class to start.  Ok so here we are.  It's Monday.  My morning classes are half over. Then I have a night class.  *sigh*  Psychology.. tonight.  Bah.  But, okay, whatever. Ok seriously, I know I said this on my last blog, but honestly, I mean this semester is like almost over. I have 4 more classes in Psychology class. WOW.  Like, Oh my goodness.  Really. 6 more classes left in History, and computers, and 7 more classes in English. But, after today, I will have 3 more classes in psychology and 6 more in english.  That is like seriously not a lot. Not at all. But, of course, we have plenty of work to keep us busy.  Hardy har har.  Lol.  Ok, so I made a list last night like I said I was going to do, but I just don't know. I feel like there is more stuff that I didn't write down.  Ahh.  Whatever.  Ok, so I'm doing this because, like I told you guys, I am grounded from my computer so I can't get on facebook.  Bah. I'm annoyed.  I'm sitting in the student lounge which is not a good idea. There are these guys in here being perverts and I'm like NO.  You need to go.  Shut your faces.  lol.  Ok yeah.  All right.  So I am going to go in about 10 minutes so I can take my stuff I don't need to the car, and trade it in for more stuff I don't need.  Lol. Seriously.  I might not need it.  I'm going to English class and we might be watching more of Mel Gibson in Hamlet.  Oh wait. I just told you guys that and you guys are my English class.  Haha.  Oh well.  Ok seriously we better watch Hamlet in class today cause I don't want to do anything else.  Are we supposed to have a draft or something for our papers today, because I don't. What I want to know is how we are going to do 2 more papers in like 3 and a half weeks.  That is not what I'm about.  I seriously have other stuff to do for other classes.  *sigh*  I have homework and a quiz to study for and a final for World Civ class.  I have some kind of test and a huge project for computers class.  and then we have these 2 jank papers for english.  Help me.  Oh, and I still have a take home test I have to do for psychology.  ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ok really. I do not want to go to stupid psychology class tonight.  I hate that class.  I wish I could stay home and do other things.  Like schoolwork that needs to be done.  Ok, I'm gonna shut down  my comp now and go get some stuff out my car.  I hope we weren't supposed to have a draft today. I'm not even completely sure how we're supposed to do this.  lol.  Bye

Erika

SO...

I didn't feel like blogging on spring break so I didn't.  I guess that I will blog now because I need to.  I should have blogged on spring break but I didn't.  So Oh well. Well, I got grounded from my computer and my cell phone. I'm not all that upset about it because I really don't use my cell phone a lot anyway.  I used to test my friend on it but we rarely talk anymore. Kind of sad. But oh well. So that's not hurting me too much.  I'm still allowed to take it to school because my mom wants me to have it.  And I still have it in my room because I use it for an alarm clock in the mornings. My mom likes for me to text her when I get to school in the mornings to let her know I got there.  She's so funny. Man, I am typing pretty stinking fast. Lol. So what else.  Oh yeah, like I said got grounded from my computer. Well I'm on a computer now cuz I'm blogging, but my mom said I can use my computer for my schoolwork.  And this counts as schoolwork.  Ok, here's the deal. I'm kinda worried about school  I'm excited because I there is only like 3 and a half more weeks until summer. And then I'll be out. But I'm thinking of all the stuff I have to do. I thought about making a list of all the major things I need to be concerned with for the rest of the semester. And I think that is a good idea.  I also think it would be a good idea to put them in order of due dates starting with what I need to turn in soonest to what can be turned in the latest.  I would feel better if I know everything I have to do so I can work on it and I don't have to think "Hm.  What do I have to do for this class and this class?"  And yeah.  So that list is sounding pretty good.  Definitely gonna do it.  So like are we supposed to have some kind of paper to hand in tomorrow in English class, because I'll tell you something.  I don't.  Ha.  Seriously though.  I went to the library and found that they did have the laurence olivier version of hamlet, but they did not actually have it right then. It was overdue.  And I never went back to see if they got it back in.  But anyway.  Well, ok like I said,  3 and a half more weeks of class.  Can you believe it?  I thought it was 4 weeks but no!  Only 3 and a half.  Woow. 14 more days of class.  Except for the people in the medical field who go on fridays.  But yeah, I meant for me. lol.  4 days each week..... 3 weeks..... and 2 days the last week.  Oooohhh junk.  I know it's going to go by so fast, but then again it's like I know we have WORK to do..   But maybe that will make it go by faster.  YAYAYAYYA! 14 more days.... I'm counting down, baby!   see you guys in class tomorrow. 

Erika

i guess

I'll blog.  Well, I just emailed my hamlet paper to my home computer so i can print it off. Cuz i don't have a printer with my laptop.  It's ok.  Works fine.  No biggie.  I get to work on my own laptop and then i can print it off from my own computer.  i don;t have to buy a printer.  woot.  so I just printed out my paper.  ok. good.  I finished my homework for world civ and printed out my paper.  ok well this is short but I'll see u jokers in class tomoro.

Erika

ugh.

I know it's been a while since I've blogged.  Well, not really a long time, but I guess maybe I blog more than this.  Holy cow.  Ok, so did you guys hear it rain today? I was sitting in class and it sounded like some torrential rain was coming down.  And now the sun is like trying to come out.  My head does not feel good.  I want to go home and sleep. As I was saying, I haven't blogged in a little while.  I just haven't felt like it. Sometimes I feel like it and sometimes I don't.  So I haven't felt like it.  But I've thought about it.  Haha.  But I guess thinking about it doesn't count as a grade.  UUUGGGHHH.  I want to go home and sleep.  Sleep sleep sleep.  SLEEP.  I stayed up too late last night.  But I had a good reason.  Okay, no I didn't.  Lol.  Well here's what happened.  You guys have seen my blogs about how I have to write a paper for psychology, right?  Okay, well I had been working on my psychology paper and I was about sick to death of it.  I had even grounded myself from facebook so I wouldn't get distracted by that while I was trying to work on it.  So, last night, I finally finished it.  FINALLY.  And I was so excited, and since I had finished, I ungrounded myself from facebook.  So I stayed up chillaxing on facebook.  That's what I did.  So that's why I didn't go to bed.  That is my good-but-not-really-that-good reason.  HA.  So anyway.. Okay.  Well, class is in about an hour so see you guys later.  

Erika

I suppose

I will do some blogging so as not to get behind, or catch up if I am behind.  Haha.  Hpefully, my blog for this class will be profoundly awesome that it will trump the not-so-awesome grades I received for my first 2 papers.  That would be wonderful.  Because someone was telling me they did that last semester. That there blog was way awesome so they got a good grade. Um, so what to talk about? Well, class was interesting today.  Not really.  Haha.  Thanks to all of you who wrote suggestions for my paper.  Perhaps if I read some of those, I will get an idea of how to fix my paper, because Ms. Frailly honestly did not help me a lot today.  Sorry, no offense. I don't know.  But whatever.  anyway, I know this blog is not very long, but I am going to go to bed now.  I want to type but some part of me just doesn't feel like it right now, so I will talk to you guys later.  Remind me to blog about grounding myself from facebook and my computer.  Ha.  See you guys in class next week.  Yay for the paper not being due on Monday!  Yay for more time to work on it!  Woot!  K, bye.

Erika

I

   Posted my revision on Google Docs if you guys wanna read it.

Peace

Erika

paper..... other paper

Yeah, okay, so, I decided last night that I was going to stay home from school today. In case you guys didn't notice yesterday in class, I was sick. Bleh. And I still am.  My nose is stopped up on one side.  Ehhh.  I honestly don't feel that bad, and I didn't when I got up but I decided to stay home anyway because I didn't want to go. Haha.  Plus, it is not critical that I go to that class.  It's my computers class, and all we do in there are assignments and then we submit them on blackboard.  And we only had one assignment we had to do today> So, tomorrow, in between my world civ and english class, I plan to do that assignment.  Then for the next class I have 3 assignments so it would be nice to get 1 or 2 of those done before I go to that class.  I don't want to be in that class all day. So anyway.  Well, I guess I'll go see what Hamlet's up to.  Bye.

Erika

Hamlet, prince of drama

Ok so, today, Steven helped me with my draft. I did not know that we were supposed to have a revision for today. Last week, Ms. Frailly had said to just keep working on this paper. I don't understand. But whatever. I'm not happy about that. But, I can take some of those ideas we wrote down today and use them for my paper. Like how we wrote all those things about what Hamlet was about? Like how we said it was about love and hate and choices and lies and relationships and all that good stuff? I can use those for my paper. Yay.  But yeah. I'm writing my paper on why "Hamlet" should be considered literature.  Literature is something that has emotional affect.  Well that's part of the reason from the Oxford English Dictionary.  So, I think Hamlet obviously has emotional affect.  I mean, hello.  The poor guy comes home to find his father dead and his mom getting hitched to his uncle.  I mean seriously. And then all the junk with Ophelia. But yeah. He really should learn how to forgive and forget. I mean, I'm not saying I wouldn't be mad at my uncle if he did something like that. But really, his vow for revenge was his downfall. Maybe, even, had Hamlet forgiven his uncle, over time, Claudius would have come to Hamlet begging for forgiveness.  Just maybe. But even if he didn't. Poor Hamlet would have been better off letting it go. But no. He gotta get revenge and accidentally kill Polonius and make Ophelia go loony and make Laertes kill HIM.  Dummy.  But whatever.  Ok, well, my laptop is soon to run out of battery, so I shall go and plug it up shortly.  See you guys in class tomorrow. No. I mean Wednesday.

Erika

Ehhh...

Ugh. I'm sick.  I got what my sister had, apparently, because she had a sore throat.  My throat is sore and icky, and I don't like it.  My nose is runny too. Oh boy. Bleh. I do not want to go to my psychology class tonight. Then again, I never do.  But, I have to look at the bright side. After this week, it's like it will be all over. Hopefully.  Well, when I say be all over, I mean that the homework and stuff like that, things we have to turn in will be all over.  Because we've already done our research review. And I've already done my class presentation on chapter 7. And tonight, we're going to do our group presentations, which I'm not really worried about. And next Monday, we hand in our awesome research papers.  Our 12 to 15 pages of research we did. Oh junk.  But, anywho, whatever.  I'm just glad because that is the big thing I have to do this semester. And once, that's over, I will be able to work on other thing and not have to worry about that anymore.  Man, I hope I finish this paper fast and I hope this week goes by fast.  Anyway, it's only a little while until class starts, so I'm going to see if I can finish the rest of the fifth page of my psychology paper.  Then it will be only 7 more pages to go.  Oh boy.  See you guys in class.

Erika

I feel like typing

So I'm gonna.  Haha.  I actually opened "pages" on my computer and started typing because I felt like it. Yep, sure did. And then I realized I could do this and put my typing to good use.  Oh my goodness, guess what you guys! I just looked at my grades for my World Civ class, and guess what.  My teacher had posted the grade for the midterm, and I got a 99!  NINETY-NINE!!!  YAY!  I am happy about that.  And, I am happy about something else. I made a 95 on a test in computers class!  Sure did!  Yay!  That's good that I made a 95 on that test, because, let me tell you something, I did not do so hot on the first test.  Oh, I already blogged about that didn't I? Yeah, I said I had made an 82.  Bleh.  I mean, it's a "B", but still. I was not happy about that grade. *sigh*  Well, okay.  So, I'm doing well in World Civ class. And I'm doing well in computers. Sort of well in computers anyway.  I am not happy, though, about the fact that I am not doing well in this class.  I actually did well last semester in Ms. Frailly's class.  It was crazy. I made an "A" on one the papers.  But I am not doing so good this semester in this class.  I mean, like, the first paper, okay. I got a C minus on it.  Which, I deserved because I honestly didn't work all that hard on it.  But, I did work on this last paper and I still made a "C" on it.  I don't understand why.  I mean, after we went over some things in class, I realized how I could have made my thesis statement better, but it was too late then.  Anyway. Not happy about that.  I just hope I maintain the grades I'm getting for World Civ, because, if I do, I'll have an "A" in that class!  Woot!  I know that we are going to have a final in that class similar to the midterm.  Which means it will be a take-home.  The midterm went like this: It was 2 essay questions, and we had to write 3 pages and have 3 sources on each question. SO yeah.  There will be the final and then another quiz which we have a proper study guide for.  Really, you can't make a bad grade in his class unless you don't even try.  I mean, if you don't try then you're out. But, it's pretty... eh.... I don't want to say easy.  It's challenging, but not impossible.  That's good.  And something else.  He likes us to learn things for ourselves.  Like, he doesn't just tell us the answers. Well sometimes he does, but like for the study guide for this last quiz, we had to find the answers to the questions for ourselves. And, of course, for the midterm, we had to find the information we needed to find on the internet or wherever.  So yeah.  That's cool that we find the answers ourselves.  He's a good teacher.  SO yeah, can you tell I feel like typing?  Anyway, maybe I'll go now......  If I can't think of anything else to say. Oh yeah!  (ha ha).  Did anyone happen to go outside yesterday after it had stopped raining? The sky was beautiful. There was a rainbow, and you could see the light from the sun before it went down for the night.  Gorgeous. That was an amazing picture God painted for us! Thank You, Jesus!  And, apparently, it's not supposed to be raining tomorrow.  I  need to text my friend and see if we are still planning to hang out tomorrow after church. Mkay, I texted her.  I'm not sure if she's awake though, so we'll see if she is.  It's like 10 minutes after midnight.  Cool! HAHA.  Wonder how long this post is gonna look?  Oh.  I better set my alarm for in the morning. All right guys.  I'm going to go.  See you in class tomorrow. Oh boy.  Here we go with Hamlet.  By the way.... spring break is in 2 more weeks.  I hope we all make it.  

Erika

Here I go...

... working on my paper for psychology class. Oh goodness.  I hope I will be able to write enough.  For those of you who do not know, it has to be 12 to 15 pages.  Oh junk. yeah.  And I have about 3 pages right now. Here is my thing. There are PLENTY of sources out there for me to use to talk about what I want to talk about with my paper. I am writing about Histrionic Personality Disorder.  That is a disorder that causes the individual to be dramatic and try to gain the attention of others. Anyway, like I said, there are plenty of resources. However, I simply do not know what all to write about.  Like what different kinds of information could I give on this topic?  I have already told what it is, and why it is more diagnosed in women, and even a story about a woman with that disorder, and I have 3 pages.  Why do I only have 3 pages? Ugh.  Stupid 9 more pages to go. 9 more at least!  Ugh.  Whatever.  Yeah, I have 3 pages, 9 more to go, and, come Monday, I will only have a week left to work on it. One thing I am doing though, when I use a source, right then and there I am citing it and putting in on my works cited page.  So I don't have to come back and do that.  So, that's pretty smart of me if I do say so myself. And I do.  Ha. But anyway. I just hope I can come up with enough stuff to talk about.  I hope I hope I hope. Another good thing about me citing sources right when I use them is that, ok.... You know how like when you are using one of those citation machine things, and you put the information in and it asks you for the date you retrieved the information?  Ok, well if I find the information right then and there and put it in my paper and cite it for my works cited page, then I will know the date I retrieved it because I retrieved it that day! Yay!  And that's one thing I do.  I will find information and save it as a bookmark and then, when I use it, I will forget what day it was that I retrieved it.  Yeah.  SO anyway.  Ok well, it's off to work on my paper now.... 9 more pages.  AT least it isn't 10 more pages.  A bit of optimism for today. Ha ha. Ok bye.

Erika

I posted...

... my Hamlet draft on Google Docs.  SO yah.  If you guys wanna read it and comment on it.  It's whatevz.  SO... it's rainy outside.  I kinda feel like writing something for fun.  Like a poem.  But what could I write?  The again I don't want to write one.  I am tired right now.  *sigh*  Ehhh...  You know what?  It was SO foggy this morning on my way to class. I had a computers class today.  Oh, guess what.  I had a test in that class on Tuesday, and I made a 95 on the test! Wooot!  YAY!  I was happy about that because I'll tell you this. I didn't do so hot on the first test.  Nope, sure didn't.  82 is what I made on the first test..  Bleh...  That's a low "B".  Huh uh.  NOT what I'm about.  Thankfully, this one went better.  YAY!  But anyway, I'm tired, so I'm gonna nap.  Peace.   Yay weekend!

Erika

Oh Junk...

I have not been blogging like I should be doing. You know what? I realize this is schoolwork and I have to do it, but I sometimes do it because I need to get on here and work on something like a paper or other "bigger" homework, but I do this because I don't feel like doing the other stuff and this is easier.  HAHA. And then like I am actually doing schoolwork, I'm just not doing the schoolwork I don't want to do.  Gosh, I'm clever.  LOL. But ok.  SO anyway. How's everyone's papers coming? Ms. Frailly sent me an email about mine and she said it was going in the right direction. So that's what I'm going to do.  She said (hopefully being truthful), that this could be my best paper yet.  That's not saying much, though, considering I have not done so well on my other papers.  Lol. But whatevz.  Oh hey, guess what! I had a test yesterday in my computers class.  It was on Microsoft Excel and Word.  I made a 95 on it!  Woot!  Yay.  Cuz I was a little concerned because I wasn't sure how I did.  But anyway, that reminded me I need to email my computers teacher about something. SO I'll see you guys in class shortly!  

Erika

I am...

sitting here blogging. So ok, this thing with Hamlet.  Like the last thing we watched in class was about polonius and claudius setting Hamlet up to see if he was "mad for Ophelia's love".  Am I right? DO you guys ever just ponder life? I mean like really?  I am a Christian and I know God is in control of my life, and He will direct me where I He wants me to go in His perfect timing.  And I realized lately that He is trying to teach me something.  (By the way, for those of you actually reading this, I know I randomly and suddenly switched from talking about Hamlet to talking about this but just bare with me.  Thanks.  Ha.)  But anyway.  Here is what God has been trying to teach me.  As for right now in my life, I do not know for sure what I want to do.  I have some ideas about things, but nothing set in stone.  I'm working toward my associate in science right now because I wanted to transfer to a 4 year college and major in psychology there, and then go on to be a Christian psychologist.  Ok. So that was the original plan.  But, now I don't know what to do.  Really, what it is, is that I don't know what God wants me to do.  Because I mean, there are so many other options out there.  I could do ANYTHING.  I could be a hairdresser.  And the reason I say that is because my mom is a hairdresser, and I am good at doing hair.  I've fixed, cut, and highlighted my friends' hair before.  And I am good at it.  I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but I'm just saying.  I don't know if God wants me to do that though.  Because I think psychology is interesting.  I don't like my psychology class this semester very much, but that's a different story.  I just don't know what to do.  Ok well, on top of this stuff, 2 people that I know of are for sure taking summer classes.  And I feel bad for not taking summer classes. But, really, what's the point in my taking summer classes when I don't know what to do?  Like, I don't want to go to this school again next year, but I don't where to go.  I don't know if I want to go to a cosmetology school, or go to central piedmont.  I'm just not sure.  But the thing God has been teaching me is that, He does not want me to be concerned with what I am going to do.  He wants me to be concerned with growing closer to Him. Of course, He could show me what he wanted me to do so I could go on with my life, but I think I would be too focused on reaching those goals and working toward them , that I would lose my focus on God.  You see what I'm saying?  And I know, in His perfect time, He will reveal His plan for my life to me.  I just have to be patient and trust Him. And I need to get to the point where I actually don't care what I do with my life, as long as it is according to God's will. I need to learn to say "Not my will, but Your's be done, Lord."  Anyway.  I'm tired so I am going to have my devotions and get to bed shortly after.  If all you Christians could pray for me, that would be great.  See you guys Monday.

Erika

*sigh*

So, okay.  If I'm being totally honest, I can see where I could have made my thesis statement more clear for my poetry paper. I did learn that today. But, other than seeing the different types of introductions there were and that everyone is different, what was the purpose of today's class?  Just wondering.  I'm not saying I minded doing what we did in class today, I'm just asking what the point was.  Anyway.  I am tired.  This seems to be the norm for me now. I don't like being tired.  I have decided to get to bed earlier than I usually do.  Only, that did not happen last night. Last night, my family came home from church, and we watched the movie Fireproof, which, by the way, is a really good movie.  Like super AWESOME movie.  Seriously.  If you haven't seen it, you need to.  But yeah, we watched that.  I had my devotions, and I cleaned the kitchen.  I also straightened up my room, and it was late by the time I got into bed.  And then it took me a while to go to sleep.  So, I got up about 10 til 7. Ok, here is my personal opinion. And I am not joking or trying to be funny about this, I am serious.  I think 8 o'clock classes are just too early.  I really do.  I mean, I understand it may not bother some people to be in class that early because they may just be morning people.  But for those of us who are not morning people, I honestly think classes should start at 9 o'clock.  That way, if those that get up early still want to, they can. And those of us that have 8 o'clock classes would be able to get a precious extra hour of sleep.  I understand that I am a teenager and teenagers like to sleep late. However, I think that I and my fellow youngsters are not the only ones who suffer.  My History teacher is sometimes groggy when I get to class as well.  I think it would be in everyone's best interest if classes were to start at 9 rather than at 8.  But ok.  That's my little 2 cents worth.  I'll see you guys on Wednesday.  

Erika

Poor Hamlet

Let me tell you something, I would be seeing red if I came home to my father dead and my mom gonna marry my uncle.  I would be like Oh HUH uh!  No!  And then both of them to tell him to basically "suck it up" about his dad being dead.  Oh no!  That does NOT work!  Here's my thing.  If you came home to find that your father had died, and to see neither your mother or your uncle grieving, would you not think something was up?  I mean seriously.  Would you think it was an accident?  I mean it would be different if you came home and found everyone miserable.  But your uncle and your mom not sad, and on top of that, about to get married?  I mean really.  Come ON!  Here's my question:  Was Hamlet an idiot?  Sorry, but seriously.  You know?  But whatever.  Have any of you decided what you're going to write this paper on?  Anyway.  Talk to you guys next week in class.

Erika

And the next thing would be....

... to receive our grades back from the papers.  (gasp!)  I know.  So, okay. Today was an easy day at school.  We read our poems that we wrote our papers on, and we talked about them.  That was good. And it took up the entire class time.  Ok so tomorrow starts back the normal schedule.  Bleh.  Well, actually, it's not completely normal to what I'm used to.  As said in a former blog, I no longer have chemistry class on Tuesday and Thursday nights.  So, thankfully, all I have is my computers class tomorrow.  Bleh.  I don't like that class.  You know what I don't want to do?  I don't want to write my stupid research paper for psychology class.  Bleh.  I want that paper to be over.  OVER I tell you!  I don't want it to exist.  Why do we have to write a paper?  Bleh bleh bleh.  BLEH.  Why can't we just do the other homeworks? The group project and stuff?  WHY?  Ugh.  Is APA style a lot different than MLA?  Is it really difficult?  I hope not.  That stupid paper for psychology is due on April 4th.  I have to look at my schedule, but is that before we go to spring break?  Idk.  If I can just make it another stinking month until that paper is good and over, I'll be ok.  I really will.  I'll be able to deal with all the other schoolwork.  Tests and stuff.  Homework.  Whatevz.  I'll be able to deal with it knowing I'll only have like 4 more weeks until summer vacation.  I'm ready for sUmMeR!!!!!!   <3    ttyl...  See you in class on Wednesday.

YAY!

Ok so, I finished my paper!  Woot!  It's printed out and uploaded on Google Docs.  Mkay, so I am glad about tomorrow.  The only class I have to go to all day is English!  And I don't mind going to that class so much.  We made up all the snow days in my World Civ class, so we don't have that class tomorrow.  Also, for some reason, we do not have psychology class tomorrow night.  And I don't care for that class, so English is all I have tomorrow! Yay!  Also, another really cool thing.  I was in this 8 week chemistry class, and we had the final on Thursday, so that was the last day!  That class was from 6 to 9 on Tuesday and Thursday nights, so now I have those times freed up.  Thankfully, the only class I have now on Tuesdays and Thursdays is computers. I don't really like that class either, but thankfully, my other class is over now, and once I get home from that one, I'll be able to chill and work on stuff and not have to think about getting ready for another class that night! Yay!  Ok, so this is good.  This week might not actually be so bad.  Usually I am dreading the week ahead, but this week, it might not be so bad because all I have for class tomorrow is English. And I do like World Civ, but it's at 8 in the morning and that is not what I'm about.  So I'm only going to have to go that early once this week, which will be on Wednesday.  And from now on, my Tuesday and Thursday nights are freeeeee!!!!  Yay!  Well, ok.  I'll see you guys in the morning.  : D  Rest well.

My Free Write from Wednesday

Ok guys.  So I started back writing my free write from Wednesday, and I thought, Hmm, I might put this on my blog.  So that's what I'm going to do.  For whoever doesn't know or forgot, I am still writing about the poem "A Certain Lady".  Here is my free-write (I have changed it):

The poem "A Certain Lady" is about a woman who listens to her best friend, a guy, tell her of his girlfriends and dates.  All the while, this woman is in love with him, though he doesn't know.  The entire poem is the woman talking to her friend in her mind.  She wishes she could tell him what she's thinking, but she can't.  She begins by saying "Oh, I can smile for you and tilt my head," meaning that she can do these things and pretend to be happy for him and interested when he tells her of his dates, and meaning the same thing when she says "And drink your rushing words with eager lips."  She may also mean here that she listens eagerly to what her best friend has to say, because she wants to know what goes on between him and these other girls.  In the next line, she states that even while she is listening to him speak of these other girls, she tries to get him to notice her as more than a friend because she says "And paint my mouth for you a fragrant red."  She is trying to look pretty and "primp" for him.  The next phrase "And trace your brows with tutored fingertips" threw me off at first.  Now I take t to mean that she does that, and he takes it as a best friend thing, but she does it wishing he would love and caress her in the same way.  In the next line, she states that she can pretend to enjoy a friendly conversation with him about his dates when she says "When you rehearse your list of loves to me, Oh I can laugh and marvel, rapturous-eyed"  But she begins to speak of her misery when she continues on by saying "And you laugh back, nor can you ever see/ The thousand little deaths my heart has died."  What she means by this is that her friend is fooled by her deception by making him think that she only cares about him and his "loves" as a friend, because he reciprocates her laugh by laughing back.  But she says he will never be able be able to see how she feels on the inside; and she and she is heartbroken and crushed because he does date other girls and does not care about her the way she cares for him.  Next she says "And you believe so well I know my part/ That I am gay as morning, light as snow"  This means that she plays a part in front of him, and the she knows this part well.  The part she plays is the part of this guy's best friend, and she is saying that he believes her.  Her part is also to act care-free and and happy for him when he comes to her with the news of his girlfriends.  This guy also does not know that this girl, his "best friend", is acting.  He thinks that she is truly his best friend, and only cares about him in that way.  If she were real with him, he would be able to see that she truly loved him.  However, on the outside she continues to play her part, but thinking to her best friend what she says next... "And all the straining things within my heart, you'll never know."  What she means here is that her heart longs to be with him, only he will never be aware of it.  Next she says, "Oh, I can laugh and listen when we meet," again stating that she plays her role as "best friend" and fakes happiness when they are together.  The nest part is another place where we see how he is interested in other girls: "And you bring tales of fresh adventurings-".  Here she says that he tells her of his newest and latest things he's done, girls he's been on dates with, and the like. "Of ladies delicately indiscreet", she goes on to say.  What this means is that these other girls flirt with him - this is what I take the words "delicately indiscreet" to mean.  Even more flirting goes on in the next line: "Of lingering hands and gently whispered things".   I imagine this young man, and a girl with their hands together - but not held together.  Together in a flirtatious way, but too shy, yet, to be so bold as to bravely and firmly hold each others' hands.  I also see the young girl giggling as the young man whispers things in her ear.  The author goes on to say "And you are pleased with me".  Meaning that he likes her the way she is and he doesn't want her to change. And, to her, that means that he would not like her to tell him that she loves him because he wants her to stay the way she is.  The nest part says "And strive anew/ To sing me sagas of your later delights."  This is saying that he loves telling her and "singing" of his newest dates and things he's done.  She again says that he doesn't want her in a girlfriend way by saying in the next line "Thus do you want me - marveling, gay and true-".  She believes that he does not want her as girlfriend who is truthful with him and to him, happy, and smitten by him.  Next she says "Nor do you see my staring eyes of nights."  This, I take to mean, that, at night, she dreams of him and longs to be with him.  The next line says "And when in search of novelty, you stray,"   This means that when he gets tired of the current girl he is dating, he will leave her and go onto another one, without thinking about her.  "I can kiss you blithely as you go..." is the next thing she says.  What she means by this is that she can bid him goodbye, yet again, as he goes on his way to find another girl.  But, to her, she is used it.  She has grown accustomed to bidding him goodbye and is used to him going and maybe even overlooking her.  Finally, the last part of the poem, she says "And what goes on, my love, while you're away/ You'll never know."  After he leaves to look for another girl, she goes back to wishing he were with her and that he loved her, and dreaming of their being together.  And she says this is the thing he will never know about, because he only thinks that she is his friend.

Wow.  This poem is so sad.  I think, though, that it carries with it a ray of hope.  Yes, he does do these things, but if she doesn't tell him how she feels, she won't know....

SIIIIGHHH...  Ok I'm about to start TRYING to write my final paper.  I just don't know though.  I'm just not sure.  I have not talked to Ms. Frially about it, so I don't know what she thinks.  But I'm going to try.  What I have to do is finish writing my free write from class on Wednesday, because I think that may help me.  I am scared I am going to not do well.  But anyway.  I have to try.  I might try to write another revision and send it to Ms. Frailly and she what she thinks about it.  SIgh.  I'm not sure if I should do that though because I know she's busy.  How is everyone else coming on their papers?  Sigh.  Ok well I'm going to go now.  Here goes with the free write...

Gosh.  Okay.  So right now I am tired, and my sister just informed me that we are going to have to get dressed for church in a little bit.  I want to go to bed.  Better, yet. I want to go to bed and nt have anything to think about.  Grr.  Ok, so I still am not sure about this paper.  I really need to get four pages and I really want it to be good too.  I'm scared it's not going to be skillfully written.  Not really scared, but kind of.  But ugh.  So how was everyone's snow day?  Good?  Mine was pretty good.  I chilled.  And slept til like 10:30.  SO yeah.  I defnitely didn't hate that.  I actually could have slept later, but I didn't want to waste my day away.  Gosh I'm tired.  How's everyone's paper coming?  I hope what we did in class today helps.  I did not get to finish my free write about it in class, so I actually think I am going to try to finish that, and see if it helps me top write my paper better.  I did notice something that I had not really paid attention to before.  I noticed how in "A Certain Lady", the girl that's speaking really does play a role.  Like she says in the poem something about how she plays her part.  And, yeah I realized she was faking and acting like she only cared about his other girlfriends as a friend.  But it occurred to me that she really is playing a role just like actors and actresses do on tv.  She pretends to be happy for him, and she pretends to only like him as a friend.  She is not, and believes she can not be herself around her own best friend.  If she were herself, her friend would know how she truly feels about him.  So sad.  Still sad.....   well anyway.  I'll see you jokers tomorrow.  This schedule is weird.  Anway.  Whatevz.  I'll be glad when spring gets here.  Peace

Erika

paper...

Hey guys!  What up?  Ok so this paper is not working out.  I want to know how your supposed to crank out at least 4 pages on a poem?  How?  Can someone please tell me?  Ok well whatever.  I need Ms. Frailly's help.  So don't nobody be asking her to help them next week, because it's saturday right now and I call dibs.  LOL Just kidding you guys.  But I for real need some help.  I'm about at a total loss.  Anyway, if any of you could help me I posted my revision in Google Docs just now.  And, believe me, I need a lot of help as you will certainly see if you read my paper.  To be quite honest, it stinks.  I know it stinks, and I didn't even read it.  That's bad. But whatever.  Hey did you guys hear about this Sunday?  It's supposed to snow.... again.  But this time it's not this "chance" stuff.  I was listening to the radio where they said that we are definitely going to get some snow on Sunday about midday.  And they don't know how it's going to be for Sunday night.  But I wonder if we are going to have another snow day.  Gosh.  Well to be honest, I wouldn't hate it.  In fact, I would love not going to my psychology class Monday night.  *sigh*  I can only hope.  So right now, I'm listening to "See You Again" by Miley Cyrus.  This song is pretty catchy.  lol.  Ok guys, well have a good Saturday.  See you in class on Monday (maybe).  

Erika

eh..

Hey losers!  What are you people doing today?  Yay!  The weekend is upon us, yet again!  Happy happy!  So, today I plan to write my revision for the poem.  I'm a little worried.  Not sure how this is going to turn out.  AHHH.  What do I do?  Eh well. 

Hi guys.  So being in class yesterday helped me.  Thank you, Ellen!  She helped me with what I could talk about with my paper.  I really didn't know what to do. because, as I have said before, I am writing my paper on the poem "A Certain Lady".  And, to me, I didn't know what, in this poem, is to be argued about.  Enough to write a whole paper on, anyway.  To me, it's just about this girl who is in love with her guy friend, but he doesn't love her.  I didn't know what could be argued.  Thankfully, and with Ellen's help, I will hopefully be able to write my paper on why this girl does not tell her best friend that she is in love with him.  I have reasons.... 1. She feels like she can't tell him she loves him because they are friends and that is what they are supposed to be.  2. The poem speaks of other girlfriends he has, so she is thinking that she can't tell him because he is dating other people.  and 3. what if he doesn't love her back?   Actually I think there was another reason, but I can't think of what it is.  Ellen and I were talking about it in class, so maybe she'll remember what it was.  Lol.  Ok, this is kind of ironic, but right now I'm listening to itunes, and guess what song is playing?  "Say" by John Mayer.  Weird.  If you guys haven't heard that song or know what it is about, it says "Say what you need to say."  Which is weird considering the poem, and how she couldn't tell her friend that she is in love with him.  Perhaps the writer of this poem needs to hear this song.  haha.  Anyway, we shall see how this whole paper thing goes.  I'm concerned that I still won't be able to get four whole pages on just this one little poem.  Eh well.  I have yet to read "The Raven".  Eh well, again.  Haha.  Ok guys, I'll see you people in class on Monday,  Have a good weekend. 

Hey guys.  So what are you guys thinking for this paper?  Have you chosen your poem yet?  So, as I said before, I chose "A Certain Lady".  I still like that poem.  But it seems like it could be difficult to write a paper on.  But we're in college - it's supposed to be that way. right?  lol.  I started reading "The Raven" by Edgar Allen Poe.  I heard Ms. Frailly tell someone that they did not want to do that poem.  I want  to know why not?  I know it's long, but does that mean it would be difficult to write this paper on?  I also like another poem, although I don't know the author.  It's called "The Wedding Ring".  It's not what I expected.  I expected it to be another one of those boring love poems.  But it's about how this lady's wedding ring has been neglected and is sitting with other stuff that is useless or not cared about.  It also says near the end something about how it symbols a promise that living wouldn't allow someone to keep.  I assume that meant that lady's husband had died and living would not allow her to remain in the promise of marriage to him. Sad.  Anyway, I want to finish reading "The Raven".  I guess I'll see you jokers in class on Wednesday.  

Erika

a certain lady

So I really like the poem "A Certain Lady".  It's sad.  Poor lady in the poem.   Wonder if the author of that poem, Dorothy Parker, really felt that way?   Did she just write it to be writing a poem?  Or did she really experience something like that and the result was to poor out her heart on paper?  It reminds me of what I've gone through.  I tried to make myself look pretty, and yes, he talked to me.  But did he really notice me?  So yeah.  I like this poem.  Lol.  I took it to mean that she and the man to whom she is referring are friends, maybe even best friends.  And since they are such good friends, he tells her of the girls he dates.  She, however, can not let him know that she loves him.  So she listens to him tell her of these girls, but inside, she is hurting.  The last two lines of the poem, "And what goes on, my love, while you're away, You'll never know.", were said in class yesterday to mean when he has gone away, she had guys over too, that he doesn't know about.  However, it could possibly mean that, while he is away, she cries and wishes that he were with her.  Perhaps that's what she meant when she said he would never know....

sup?

Hey guys.  So we're into the poetry part now huh? So for those of you who didn't notice, I wasn't in class on Monday.  I was sick.  Bleh.  I feel better, but still crummy.  Lol.  So, thankfully, Amber is in my computers class and she was able to let me know what the homework was.  Read a page and then read "A Certain Lady", and find a poem that interests us.  I wonder if we are going to have to write a paper on a poem the same way we did with the short stories or if this paper is going to be different?  Hmm...  Time will tell.  I just realized today that in my chemistry class, we only have like 6 more sessions and we will be done for the semester.  That is the one that's my 8 week class.  So, yay about that.  That is really good.  Then I'll have more time to do other homework and papers and stuff.  Yay.  Well, have a good day guys, and I will see you people tomorrow in class.  Ugh.  That means I have to get up early and go to my history class. Boo.  lol.  peace out, you guys.

Erika

paper... final. ahhhhh...

ok so here's the deal.  um , do i start off all my blogs with "ok so"  lol.  anyway.  I'm not entirely sure about my paper.  I wrote it and it is sort of finished but I'm not sure.  There is something in it that I don't like.  Well, thankfully we had more time to work on it.  anyway.  so i heard that on fridays the school closes at 2, so I'm going to have to figure it out before then.  Ugh.  but anyway.  all right, so see you guys in class. 

Erika

What to do?!?!?.

Ok, so class today was helpful.  My paper needs organization.  Really, I just wrote my paper trying to make the point that in The Yellow Wallpaper, John's actions are the reason his wife goes totally insane.  But I did not have any organization to it.  I just threw in a bunch of points on how this comes about.  What I need to do is to pull different instances out of the story that shows my theory, and put them one by one in the paper.  Next, after I put each instance, I need to explain this instance by what happened, then move on to the next instance.  This is all well and good, but I am wondering something.  I wonder if I should change the story I'm writing about?  I've already changed it once.  I started with Boys and Girls, and now this.  The reason I'm wondering this is because it seems like most everybody is writing about this paper.  That's not my problem though.  My problem is that because everyone is doing this paper, there are ideas floating around and they are good ideas.  I don't want to put someone else's idea in my paper.  So should I change stories again?  Eh well, I'll pray about what to do...  Until later, fellow classmates.

Erika

More time....

Yes!  Okay, so I emailed Ms. Frailly like I said I was going to do, and she got back to me and informed me that we are going to have more time to work on our papers.  Yayness!    Ok so what have you guys been up to?  Anyway, short post, but whatevz.  Bye!

WEEKEND BABY!

Hey people!  It's me again.  So Yay, weekend!  Fridays are seriously awesome.  I made it through my chem midterm last night, thank goodness.  But don't ask me how I did.  I'll let you know next week when I get my grade back.  So yay, the semester is officially one fourth over.  Woot.  I was going to start working on my paper today, but you know what.  I'm not really sure what to do.  Like I said in an earlier blog, I know I need to somehow come up with an view that is different than mine is in the paper and argue it.  But I would like some more information on what is wrong with my current revision.  I need Ms. Frailly!!!!!!!!  lol.   For real though, I want to see how she marked up my paper so I can know what to do different.  Okay.  I'm going to e-mail her.  Hopefully we will have some extra time to work on our papers.  Okay, fellow-scholars.  See in you class.  

Erika 

All right so I was looking at Holly's blog, and she made a good point.  Wonder if our paper is still due Monday?  On account of not having class yesterday, and we did not get to talk about style and editing.  Hmm..  Well.  I'm going to work on it anyway.  I need to do that.  I also am going to work on some World Civ homework, that was going to be due Monday as well, but now it is going to be moved until Wednesday.  Like I had said in my other blog, I know I am going to have a makeup assignment for World Civ, but I just want to know what it is.  I'm ready for this cold weather to be over.  Truth be told, I'm ready for summer.  *sigh*   Summer - when we go to the beach.  Summer - when we are out of school (if we so choose to be, now that we're in college).  Summer - where we go to the pool, and make ice cream runs.  Summer - where we can chill by laying out and getting a tan.  Ahhh... Summer.  I am a total summer minded person by the way.  It is definitely my favorite season.  I am bound and determined to live at the beach when I'm older.  Like after I get married.  Yeah.  Totally. Lol.  I have to confess that this English class is my favorite class.  We have more fun, and it is more laid back in that class than some of my others.  Actually, my Chemistry class, which is at night, is pretty laid back.  I go to that class tonight.  We have our midterm tonight.  Woo.  And just in case you people are wondering why I already have a midterm in that class, it is because it is an 8 week class, so it's already half over.  So yay, about that.  Well anyway, you guys have an uber fun weekend.  Someone let me know if they hear anything about whether our paper is due Monday or not.  See you guys on Monday, unless we have another random snowing in the night and they cancel class again (please, no).  Peace..... Erika

I'm sitting here as my dad plays golf on the wii.  Well, it snowed again today, which means we did not have class.  It was good to sleep and in and have a bum day, because I was planning to get up at 6:15.  My mom woke my up and 5 something and told me to turn my alarm off because it had snowed.  So I watched The Twilight Zone and drew a colorful picture today. lol.  However, I checked blackboard and my teacher for my World Civ has put on there that a make-up assignment is coming up.  I'm sure everyone is all excited about having to do that again.  woohoo. ugh. Anyway, as far as my paper goes, I need to put an argument in it.  Are we going to have to have a make-up assignments for this class?  If we do it should just be like we have to blog an extra time.  lol.  Anyway, talk to you people later.   

WOOT! in class..

ok so here we are in class. we are doing like eleventy billion things at once. hahahah not really.  but so i was trying to upload my paper on google docs, then I was trying to add people to my contacts in gmail, and last i have been adding people to my blog. woot maky. more work you guys.  ttyl

1st paper, and class.... yeah

Okay so, I learned some more about what I need to do with my paper today.  I had written about the story "Boys and Girls", but I am not sure that story is long enough to write about.  I think I am going to write about "The Yellow Wallpaper", because it has more to it, in a way.  However, I am going to have to read it again to understand what I need to understand to write a paper.  When I do write about a story, I am going to have to focus on one point in the paper.  For example, in class today, we talked about Liz's paper.  She could choose to write about how Miss Emily could have taken responsibility for her own actions in "A Rose for Emily", or how the townspeople should not have allowed Miss Emily to live above the law, just because of her social status.  The paper could focus on either one of these aspects.  If I plan on writing about "The Yellow Wallpaper", I could focus on how the husband's condescending and dismissive manner toward his wife had a negative affect on her.  Hopefully I will be able to write enough pages, though.  I did not even write 2 full pages on the first draft.  But anyway, talk to you people later. peace

"Boys and Girls"

For this blog, I chose to write about the story "Boys and Girls".   I did like "The Yellow Wallpaper", but I did not understand a lot about what made sense to her and why she, therefore, did what she did.  In Boys and Girls, however, the girl did not want to be cooped up in the house and thought of as a simple girl.  She did not like the fact that her mother made her come inside and work when she would rather be working with her father outside. She simply wanted to be different and there is nothing wrong with that.  However, in that day and time, they did expect the women to stay inside and do all the housework while the men were outside doing the more manly jobs.  I chose to answer some of the questions on the norton website and one in the book for this blog.

In the book, the second question is "Find the two occurrences of the phrase 'only a girl.' Why and how does the meaning of the phrase change in each case?"  In the first scenario, the girl is working with her father when a salesman approaches.  The father introduces his daughter to the salesman as his "new hired man" in a sarcastic manner, insinuating that she works just as good as a boy.  "Could have fooled me," the salesman replies. "I thought it was only a girl." What he means by this is that, at first sight, she is a girl.  But, in fact, she works in the barn with her father, like a hired man of that day would.

One question on the norton website asks how I reacted to animals being killed in the story.  One thing I did not like was how Henry, the father's hired man, laughed when the horse, Mack, kicked his legs in the air after he had been shot. The other stuff did not bother me so much.  I did feel sorry for poor Mack; it was rather sad.  It was also sad about the horses and the foxes, nevertheless, this is how the father made a living, and he supported the family.

I am going to read the story again and see if I can tell if this girl gave up trying to be a tomboy, or if she simply exited that particular phase in her life and other things began to appeal to her.

mmmmmmmmmmmkay..............

Hey peoples!!! So I'm on my blog, still got some stuff to figure out. How do I accept friend requests? I don't know. But ok. This is my first blog on here. Woot! peace out, Fierceness