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   Posted my revision on Google Docs if you guys wanna read it.

Peace

Erika

paper..... other paper

Yeah, okay, so, I decided last night that I was going to stay home from school today. In case you guys didn't notice yesterday in class, I was sick. Bleh. And I still am.  My nose is stopped up on one side.  Ehhh.  I honestly don't feel that bad, and I didn't when I got up but I decided to stay home anyway because I didn't want to go. Haha.  Plus, it is not critical that I go to that class.  It's my computers class, and all we do in there are assignments and then we submit them on blackboard.  And we only had one assignment we had to do today> So, tomorrow, in between my world civ and english class, I plan to do that assignment.  Then for the next class I have 3 assignments so it would be nice to get 1 or 2 of those done before I go to that class.  I don't want to be in that class all day. So anyway.  Well, I guess I'll go see what Hamlet's up to.  Bye.

Erika

Hamlet, prince of drama

Ok so, today, Steven helped me with my draft. I did not know that we were supposed to have a revision for today. Last week, Ms. Frailly had said to just keep working on this paper. I don't understand. But whatever. I'm not happy about that. But, I can take some of those ideas we wrote down today and use them for my paper. Like how we wrote all those things about what Hamlet was about? Like how we said it was about love and hate and choices and lies and relationships and all that good stuff? I can use those for my paper. Yay.  But yeah. I'm writing my paper on why "Hamlet" should be considered literature.  Literature is something that has emotional affect.  Well that's part of the reason from the Oxford English Dictionary.  So, I think Hamlet obviously has emotional affect.  I mean, hello.  The poor guy comes home to find his father dead and his mom getting hitched to his uncle.  I mean seriously. And then all the junk with Ophelia. But yeah. He really should learn how to forgive and forget. I mean, I'm not saying I wouldn't be mad at my uncle if he did something like that. But really, his vow for revenge was his downfall. Maybe, even, had Hamlet forgiven his uncle, over time, Claudius would have come to Hamlet begging for forgiveness.  Just maybe. But even if he didn't. Poor Hamlet would have been better off letting it go. But no. He gotta get revenge and accidentally kill Polonius and make Ophelia go loony and make Laertes kill HIM.  Dummy.  But whatever.  Ok, well, my laptop is soon to run out of battery, so I shall go and plug it up shortly.  See you guys in class tomorrow. No. I mean Wednesday.

Erika

Ehhh...

Ugh. I'm sick.  I got what my sister had, apparently, because she had a sore throat.  My throat is sore and icky, and I don't like it.  My nose is runny too. Oh boy. Bleh. I do not want to go to my psychology class tonight. Then again, I never do.  But, I have to look at the bright side. After this week, it's like it will be all over. Hopefully.  Well, when I say be all over, I mean that the homework and stuff like that, things we have to turn in will be all over.  Because we've already done our research review. And I've already done my class presentation on chapter 7. And tonight, we're going to do our group presentations, which I'm not really worried about. And next Monday, we hand in our awesome research papers.  Our 12 to 15 pages of research we did. Oh junk.  But, anywho, whatever.  I'm just glad because that is the big thing I have to do this semester. And once, that's over, I will be able to work on other thing and not have to worry about that anymore.  Man, I hope I finish this paper fast and I hope this week goes by fast.  Anyway, it's only a little while until class starts, so I'm going to see if I can finish the rest of the fifth page of my psychology paper.  Then it will be only 7 more pages to go.  Oh boy.  See you guys in class.

Erika

I feel like typing

So I'm gonna.  Haha.  I actually opened "pages" on my computer and started typing because I felt like it. Yep, sure did. And then I realized I could do this and put my typing to good use.  Oh my goodness, guess what you guys! I just looked at my grades for my World Civ class, and guess what.  My teacher had posted the grade for the midterm, and I got a 99!  NINETY-NINE!!!  YAY!  I am happy about that.  And, I am happy about something else. I made a 95 on a test in computers class!  Sure did!  Yay!  That's good that I made a 95 on that test, because, let me tell you something, I did not do so hot on the first test.  Oh, I already blogged about that didn't I? Yeah, I said I had made an 82.  Bleh.  I mean, it's a "B", but still. I was not happy about that grade. *sigh*  Well, okay.  So, I'm doing well in World Civ class. And I'm doing well in computers. Sort of well in computers anyway.  I am not happy, though, about the fact that I am not doing well in this class.  I actually did well last semester in Ms. Frailly's class.  It was crazy. I made an "A" on one the papers.  But I am not doing so good this semester in this class.  I mean, like, the first paper, okay. I got a C minus on it.  Which, I deserved because I honestly didn't work all that hard on it.  But, I did work on this last paper and I still made a "C" on it.  I don't understand why.  I mean, after we went over some things in class, I realized how I could have made my thesis statement better, but it was too late then.  Anyway. Not happy about that.  I just hope I maintain the grades I'm getting for World Civ, because, if I do, I'll have an "A" in that class!  Woot!  I know that we are going to have a final in that class similar to the midterm.  Which means it will be a take-home.  The midterm went like this: It was 2 essay questions, and we had to write 3 pages and have 3 sources on each question. SO yeah.  There will be the final and then another quiz which we have a proper study guide for.  Really, you can't make a bad grade in his class unless you don't even try.  I mean, if you don't try then you're out. But, it's pretty... eh.... I don't want to say easy.  It's challenging, but not impossible.  That's good.  And something else.  He likes us to learn things for ourselves.  Like, he doesn't just tell us the answers. Well sometimes he does, but like for the study guide for this last quiz, we had to find the answers to the questions for ourselves. And, of course, for the midterm, we had to find the information we needed to find on the internet or wherever.  So yeah.  That's cool that we find the answers ourselves.  He's a good teacher.  SO yeah, can you tell I feel like typing?  Anyway, maybe I'll go now......  If I can't think of anything else to say. Oh yeah!  (ha ha).  Did anyone happen to go outside yesterday after it had stopped raining? The sky was beautiful. There was a rainbow, and you could see the light from the sun before it went down for the night.  Gorgeous. That was an amazing picture God painted for us! Thank You, Jesus!  And, apparently, it's not supposed to be raining tomorrow.  I  need to text my friend and see if we are still planning to hang out tomorrow after church. Mkay, I texted her.  I'm not sure if she's awake though, so we'll see if she is.  It's like 10 minutes after midnight.  Cool! HAHA.  Wonder how long this post is gonna look?  Oh.  I better set my alarm for in the morning. All right guys.  I'm going to go.  See you in class tomorrow. Oh boy.  Here we go with Hamlet.  By the way.... spring break is in 2 more weeks.  I hope we all make it.  

Erika

Here I go...

... working on my paper for psychology class. Oh goodness.  I hope I will be able to write enough.  For those of you who do not know, it has to be 12 to 15 pages.  Oh junk. yeah.  And I have about 3 pages right now. Here is my thing. There are PLENTY of sources out there for me to use to talk about what I want to talk about with my paper. I am writing about Histrionic Personality Disorder.  That is a disorder that causes the individual to be dramatic and try to gain the attention of others. Anyway, like I said, there are plenty of resources. However, I simply do not know what all to write about.  Like what different kinds of information could I give on this topic?  I have already told what it is, and why it is more diagnosed in women, and even a story about a woman with that disorder, and I have 3 pages.  Why do I only have 3 pages? Ugh.  Stupid 9 more pages to go. 9 more at least!  Ugh.  Whatever.  Yeah, I have 3 pages, 9 more to go, and, come Monday, I will only have a week left to work on it. One thing I am doing though, when I use a source, right then and there I am citing it and putting in on my works cited page.  So I don't have to come back and do that.  So, that's pretty smart of me if I do say so myself. And I do.  Ha. But anyway. I just hope I can come up with enough stuff to talk about.  I hope I hope I hope. Another good thing about me citing sources right when I use them is that, ok.... You know how like when you are using one of those citation machine things, and you put the information in and it asks you for the date you retrieved the information?  Ok, well if I find the information right then and there and put it in my paper and cite it for my works cited page, then I will know the date I retrieved it because I retrieved it that day! Yay!  And that's one thing I do.  I will find information and save it as a bookmark and then, when I use it, I will forget what day it was that I retrieved it.  Yeah.  SO anyway.  Ok well, it's off to work on my paper now.... 9 more pages.  AT least it isn't 10 more pages.  A bit of optimism for today. Ha ha. Ok bye.

Erika

I posted...

... my Hamlet draft on Google Docs.  SO yah.  If you guys wanna read it and comment on it.  It's whatevz.  SO... it's rainy outside.  I kinda feel like writing something for fun.  Like a poem.  But what could I write?  The again I don't want to write one.  I am tired right now.  *sigh*  Ehhh...  You know what?  It was SO foggy this morning on my way to class. I had a computers class today.  Oh, guess what.  I had a test in that class on Tuesday, and I made a 95 on the test! Wooot!  YAY!  I was happy about that because I'll tell you this. I didn't do so hot on the first test.  Nope, sure didn't.  82 is what I made on the first test..  Bleh...  That's a low "B".  Huh uh.  NOT what I'm about.  Thankfully, this one went better.  YAY!  But anyway, I'm tired, so I'm gonna nap.  Peace.   Yay weekend!

Erika

Oh Junk...

I have not been blogging like I should be doing. You know what? I realize this is schoolwork and I have to do it, but I sometimes do it because I need to get on here and work on something like a paper or other "bigger" homework, but I do this because I don't feel like doing the other stuff and this is easier.  HAHA. And then like I am actually doing schoolwork, I'm just not doing the schoolwork I don't want to do.  Gosh, I'm clever.  LOL. But ok.  SO anyway. How's everyone's papers coming? Ms. Frailly sent me an email about mine and she said it was going in the right direction. So that's what I'm going to do.  She said (hopefully being truthful), that this could be my best paper yet.  That's not saying much, though, considering I have not done so well on my other papers.  Lol. But whatevz.  Oh hey, guess what! I had a test yesterday in my computers class.  It was on Microsoft Excel and Word.  I made a 95 on it!  Woot!  Yay.  Cuz I was a little concerned because I wasn't sure how I did.  But anyway, that reminded me I need to email my computers teacher about something. SO I'll see you guys in class shortly!  

Erika

I am...

sitting here blogging. So ok, this thing with Hamlet.  Like the last thing we watched in class was about polonius and claudius setting Hamlet up to see if he was "mad for Ophelia's love".  Am I right? DO you guys ever just ponder life? I mean like really?  I am a Christian and I know God is in control of my life, and He will direct me where I He wants me to go in His perfect timing.  And I realized lately that He is trying to teach me something.  (By the way, for those of you actually reading this, I know I randomly and suddenly switched from talking about Hamlet to talking about this but just bare with me.  Thanks.  Ha.)  But anyway.  Here is what God has been trying to teach me.  As for right now in my life, I do not know for sure what I want to do.  I have some ideas about things, but nothing set in stone.  I'm working toward my associate in science right now because I wanted to transfer to a 4 year college and major in psychology there, and then go on to be a Christian psychologist.  Ok. So that was the original plan.  But, now I don't know what to do.  Really, what it is, is that I don't know what God wants me to do.  Because I mean, there are so many other options out there.  I could do ANYTHING.  I could be a hairdresser.  And the reason I say that is because my mom is a hairdresser, and I am good at doing hair.  I've fixed, cut, and highlighted my friends' hair before.  And I am good at it.  I'm not trying to be conceited or anything, but I'm just saying.  I don't know if God wants me to do that though.  Because I think psychology is interesting.  I don't like my psychology class this semester very much, but that's a different story.  I just don't know what to do.  Ok well, on top of this stuff, 2 people that I know of are for sure taking summer classes.  And I feel bad for not taking summer classes. But, really, what's the point in my taking summer classes when I don't know what to do?  Like, I don't want to go to this school again next year, but I don't where to go.  I don't know if I want to go to a cosmetology school, or go to central piedmont.  I'm just not sure.  But the thing God has been teaching me is that, He does not want me to be concerned with what I am going to do.  He wants me to be concerned with growing closer to Him. Of course, He could show me what he wanted me to do so I could go on with my life, but I think I would be too focused on reaching those goals and working toward them , that I would lose my focus on God.  You see what I'm saying?  And I know, in His perfect time, He will reveal His plan for my life to me.  I just have to be patient and trust Him. And I need to get to the point where I actually don't care what I do with my life, as long as it is according to God's will. I need to learn to say "Not my will, but Your's be done, Lord."  Anyway.  I'm tired so I am going to have my devotions and get to bed shortly after.  If all you Christians could pray for me, that would be great.  See you guys Monday.

Erika

*sigh*

So, okay.  If I'm being totally honest, I can see where I could have made my thesis statement more clear for my poetry paper. I did learn that today. But, other than seeing the different types of introductions there were and that everyone is different, what was the purpose of today's class?  Just wondering.  I'm not saying I minded doing what we did in class today, I'm just asking what the point was.  Anyway.  I am tired.  This seems to be the norm for me now. I don't like being tired.  I have decided to get to bed earlier than I usually do.  Only, that did not happen last night. Last night, my family came home from church, and we watched the movie Fireproof, which, by the way, is a really good movie.  Like super AWESOME movie.  Seriously.  If you haven't seen it, you need to.  But yeah, we watched that.  I had my devotions, and I cleaned the kitchen.  I also straightened up my room, and it was late by the time I got into bed.  And then it took me a while to go to sleep.  So, I got up about 10 til 7. Ok, here is my personal opinion. And I am not joking or trying to be funny about this, I am serious.  I think 8 o'clock classes are just too early.  I really do.  I mean, I understand it may not bother some people to be in class that early because they may just be morning people.  But for those of us who are not morning people, I honestly think classes should start at 9 o'clock.  That way, if those that get up early still want to, they can. And those of us that have 8 o'clock classes would be able to get a precious extra hour of sleep.  I understand that I am a teenager and teenagers like to sleep late. However, I think that I and my fellow youngsters are not the only ones who suffer.  My History teacher is sometimes groggy when I get to class as well.  I think it would be in everyone's best interest if classes were to start at 9 rather than at 8.  But ok.  That's my little 2 cents worth.  I'll see you guys on Wednesday.  

Erika

Poor Hamlet

Let me tell you something, I would be seeing red if I came home to my father dead and my mom gonna marry my uncle.  I would be like Oh HUH uh!  No!  And then both of them to tell him to basically "suck it up" about his dad being dead.  Oh no!  That does NOT work!  Here's my thing.  If you came home to find that your father had died, and to see neither your mother or your uncle grieving, would you not think something was up?  I mean seriously.  Would you think it was an accident?  I mean it would be different if you came home and found everyone miserable.  But your uncle and your mom not sad, and on top of that, about to get married?  I mean really.  Come ON!  Here's my question:  Was Hamlet an idiot?  Sorry, but seriously.  You know?  But whatever.  Have any of you decided what you're going to write this paper on?  Anyway.  Talk to you guys next week in class.

Erika

And the next thing would be....

... to receive our grades back from the papers.  (gasp!)  I know.  So, okay. Today was an easy day at school.  We read our poems that we wrote our papers on, and we talked about them.  That was good. And it took up the entire class time.  Ok so tomorrow starts back the normal schedule.  Bleh.  Well, actually, it's not completely normal to what I'm used to.  As said in a former blog, I no longer have chemistry class on Tuesday and Thursday nights.  So, thankfully, all I have is my computers class tomorrow.  Bleh.  I don't like that class.  You know what I don't want to do?  I don't want to write my stupid research paper for psychology class.  Bleh.  I want that paper to be over.  OVER I tell you!  I don't want it to exist.  Why do we have to write a paper?  Bleh bleh bleh.  BLEH.  Why can't we just do the other homeworks? The group project and stuff?  WHY?  Ugh.  Is APA style a lot different than MLA?  Is it really difficult?  I hope not.  That stupid paper for psychology is due on April 4th.  I have to look at my schedule, but is that before we go to spring break?  Idk.  If I can just make it another stinking month until that paper is good and over, I'll be ok.  I really will.  I'll be able to deal with all the other schoolwork.  Tests and stuff.  Homework.  Whatevz.  I'll be able to deal with it knowing I'll only have like 4 more weeks until summer vacation.  I'm ready for sUmMeR!!!!!!   <3    ttyl...  See you in class on Wednesday.

YAY!

Ok so, I finished my paper!  Woot!  It's printed out and uploaded on Google Docs.  Mkay, so I am glad about tomorrow.  The only class I have to go to all day is English!  And I don't mind going to that class so much.  We made up all the snow days in my World Civ class, so we don't have that class tomorrow.  Also, for some reason, we do not have psychology class tomorrow night.  And I don't care for that class, so English is all I have tomorrow! Yay!  Also, another really cool thing.  I was in this 8 week chemistry class, and we had the final on Thursday, so that was the last day!  That class was from 6 to 9 on Tuesday and Thursday nights, so now I have those times freed up.  Thankfully, the only class I have now on Tuesdays and Thursdays is computers. I don't really like that class either, but thankfully, my other class is over now, and once I get home from that one, I'll be able to chill and work on stuff and not have to think about getting ready for another class that night! Yay!  Ok, so this is good.  This week might not actually be so bad.  Usually I am dreading the week ahead, but this week, it might not be so bad because all I have for class tomorrow is English. And I do like World Civ, but it's at 8 in the morning and that is not what I'm about.  So I'm only going to have to go that early once this week, which will be on Wednesday.  And from now on, my Tuesday and Thursday nights are freeeeee!!!!  Yay!  Well, ok.  I'll see you guys in the morning.  : D  Rest well.

My Free Write from Wednesday

Ok guys.  So I started back writing my free write from Wednesday, and I thought, Hmm, I might put this on my blog.  So that's what I'm going to do.  For whoever doesn't know or forgot, I am still writing about the poem "A Certain Lady".  Here is my free-write (I have changed it):

The poem "A Certain Lady" is about a woman who listens to her best friend, a guy, tell her of his girlfriends and dates.  All the while, this woman is in love with him, though he doesn't know.  The entire poem is the woman talking to her friend in her mind.  She wishes she could tell him what she's thinking, but she can't.  She begins by saying "Oh, I can smile for you and tilt my head," meaning that she can do these things and pretend to be happy for him and interested when he tells her of his dates, and meaning the same thing when she says "And drink your rushing words with eager lips."  She may also mean here that she listens eagerly to what her best friend has to say, because she wants to know what goes on between him and these other girls.  In the next line, she states that even while she is listening to him speak of these other girls, she tries to get him to notice her as more than a friend because she says "And paint my mouth for you a fragrant red."  She is trying to look pretty and "primp" for him.  The next phrase "And trace your brows with tutored fingertips" threw me off at first.  Now I take t to mean that she does that, and he takes it as a best friend thing, but she does it wishing he would love and caress her in the same way.  In the next line, she states that she can pretend to enjoy a friendly conversation with him about his dates when she says "When you rehearse your list of loves to me, Oh I can laugh and marvel, rapturous-eyed"  But she begins to speak of her misery when she continues on by saying "And you laugh back, nor can you ever see/ The thousand little deaths my heart has died."  What she means by this is that her friend is fooled by her deception by making him think that she only cares about him and his "loves" as a friend, because he reciprocates her laugh by laughing back.  But she says he will never be able be able to see how she feels on the inside; and she and she is heartbroken and crushed because he does date other girls and does not care about her the way she cares for him.  Next she says "And you believe so well I know my part/ That I am gay as morning, light as snow"  This means that she plays a part in front of him, and the she knows this part well.  The part she plays is the part of this guy's best friend, and she is saying that he believes her.  Her part is also to act care-free and and happy for him when he comes to her with the news of his girlfriends.  This guy also does not know that this girl, his "best friend", is acting.  He thinks that she is truly his best friend, and only cares about him in that way.  If she were real with him, he would be able to see that she truly loved him.  However, on the outside she continues to play her part, but thinking to her best friend what she says next... "And all the straining things within my heart, you'll never know."  What she means here is that her heart longs to be with him, only he will never be aware of it.  Next she says, "Oh, I can laugh and listen when we meet," again stating that she plays her role as "best friend" and fakes happiness when they are together.  The nest part is another place where we see how he is interested in other girls: "And you bring tales of fresh adventurings-".  Here she says that he tells her of his newest and latest things he's done, girls he's been on dates with, and the like. "Of ladies delicately indiscreet", she goes on to say.  What this means is that these other girls flirt with him - this is what I take the words "delicately indiscreet" to mean.  Even more flirting goes on in the next line: "Of lingering hands and gently whispered things".   I imagine this young man, and a girl with their hands together - but not held together.  Together in a flirtatious way, but too shy, yet, to be so bold as to bravely and firmly hold each others' hands.  I also see the young girl giggling as the young man whispers things in her ear.  The author goes on to say "And you are pleased with me".  Meaning that he likes her the way she is and he doesn't want her to change. And, to her, that means that he would not like her to tell him that she loves him because he wants her to stay the way she is.  The nest part says "And strive anew/ To sing me sagas of your later delights."  This is saying that he loves telling her and "singing" of his newest dates and things he's done.  She again says that he doesn't want her in a girlfriend way by saying in the next line "Thus do you want me - marveling, gay and true-".  She believes that he does not want her as girlfriend who is truthful with him and to him, happy, and smitten by him.  Next she says "Nor do you see my staring eyes of nights."  This, I take to mean, that, at night, she dreams of him and longs to be with him.  The next line says "And when in search of novelty, you stray,"   This means that when he gets tired of the current girl he is dating, he will leave her and go onto another one, without thinking about her.  "I can kiss you blithely as you go..." is the next thing she says.  What she means by this is that she can bid him goodbye, yet again, as he goes on his way to find another girl.  But, to her, she is used it.  She has grown accustomed to bidding him goodbye and is used to him going and maybe even overlooking her.  Finally, the last part of the poem, she says "And what goes on, my love, while you're away/ You'll never know."  After he leaves to look for another girl, she goes back to wishing he were with her and that he loved her, and dreaming of their being together.  And she says this is the thing he will never know about, because he only thinks that she is his friend.

Wow.  This poem is so sad.  I think, though, that it carries with it a ray of hope.  Yes, he does do these things, but if she doesn't tell him how she feels, she won't know....

SIIIIGHHH...  Ok I'm about to start TRYING to write my final paper.  I just don't know though.  I'm just not sure.  I have not talked to Ms. Frially about it, so I don't know what she thinks.  But I'm going to try.  What I have to do is finish writing my free write from class on Wednesday, because I think that may help me.  I am scared I am going to not do well.  But anyway.  I have to try.  I might try to write another revision and send it to Ms. Frailly and she what she thinks about it.  SIgh.  I'm not sure if I should do that though because I know she's busy.  How is everyone else coming on their papers?  Sigh.  Ok well I'm going to go now.  Here goes with the free write...

Gosh.  Okay.  So right now I am tired, and my sister just informed me that we are going to have to get dressed for church in a little bit.  I want to go to bed.  Better, yet. I want to go to bed and nt have anything to think about.  Grr.  Ok, so I still am not sure about this paper.  I really need to get four pages and I really want it to be good too.  I'm scared it's not going to be skillfully written.  Not really scared, but kind of.  But ugh.  So how was everyone's snow day?  Good?  Mine was pretty good.  I chilled.  And slept til like 10:30.  SO yeah.  I defnitely didn't hate that.  I actually could have slept later, but I didn't want to waste my day away.  Gosh I'm tired.  How's everyone's paper coming?  I hope what we did in class today helps.  I did not get to finish my free write about it in class, so I actually think I am going to try to finish that, and see if it helps me top write my paper better.  I did notice something that I had not really paid attention to before.  I noticed how in "A Certain Lady", the girl that's speaking really does play a role.  Like she says in the poem something about how she plays her part.  And, yeah I realized she was faking and acting like she only cared about his other girlfriends as a friend.  But it occurred to me that she really is playing a role just like actors and actresses do on tv.  She pretends to be happy for him, and she pretends to only like him as a friend.  She is not, and believes she can not be herself around her own best friend.  If she were herself, her friend would know how she truly feels about him.  So sad.  Still sad.....   well anyway.  I'll see you jokers tomorrow.  This schedule is weird.  Anway.  Whatevz.  I'll be glad when spring gets here.  Peace

Erika