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Ugh. I hate everything right now. I've wasted my summer by sitting around and not doing anything even though I said I was gonna read but I didn't. And it's it's too stupid late to do anything about it now because it's Tuesday night and I start school this Monday. What sucks is that this is the last summer I will ever have because I'm starting cosmetology school and then when that's done it's like that it's I'm done. I start my career then. So this was it. This is the last summer ever. The only consolation I have is knowing that right when I do start my career working for some beauty place, it may not be full time and I'll have some time to read. Ok so there's that. Then there's the fact that I feel stupid because here are all my friends out there in college working toward real jobs. And I know being a hairdresser is a real job, but I mean jobs that actually take some amount of education. I feel like cosmetology school is this cop-out job that you do when you don't want to learn or take the time to learn anything. And here's courtney going to be a nurse, and rachel going to be in medical sonography , and I just thought of Chris who wants to be a medical missionary. I mean yeah there's me and meghann and lauren all going to cos school together, but I still feel like people think I'm stupid. I feel like I need to prove to people and maybe even to myself that I am somebody. That I'm not this dumb cos school ditzy stupid person who isn't smart. Though I feel like I am that way. I feel like I'm not smart. Courtney is smart and I hate it. I feel like she thinks she's smart and I'm dumb and she looks down on me. And ok maybe she doensn't and maybe it's my own personal insecurity. But I feel like she doens't like me and she thinks I'm annoying and she looks down on me because she's smarter than me. I wanna go to actual school and major in psychology and be a psychologist. I do. And I was thinking, maybe I can do that later in life. Like, since I don't have a job, maybe I can go to cos school and get my liscence and do hair and make money doing that while I go to school for psychology. I just feel really dumb. I didn't even take the SAT. I have yet to take it. It's because I'm stupid and how would I ever get into a good college anyway I'm just one of those idiots who goes to community college. Community crap college. I feel so stupid. Ok and then there's the whole thing with my birthday being like a week and a half away. Like my mom informs me that she is going to give me 100 dollars for my birthday. And that's for anything and everything. like she said i could have a party, or if i didn't want one she'd give me the hundred dollars. Can u believe that? ok i my sound selfish but I wouldn't even go shopping if I only had $100 to spend. $100 dollars buys SQUAT in this day and time. It's like woo let me go buy a couple of freaking SHIRTS!!! my gosh. and she seriously means it too. like i told her i decided that i wanted my camera fixed for my birthday and she goes "what if it costs more than a hundred dollars?"  CAN YOU FREAKING BELIEVE THAT?!?!?! she honestly asked me that question. like i have no doubt if they went to get it fixed and it costed more than a hundred dollars she would make me pay the rest or i wouldn't get my camera back. and keep in mind THAT'S ALL SHE'D GET ME!!! like i seriously wouldn't get ANYTHING else for my birthday. just my stupid camera fixed which should work anyway. i hate everything. i seriously so. I'm pissed and i hate every freaking thing. 

thoughts about "other things"

ok so here's the thing. When I posted that last blog, did I say something about perhaps liking Matt? Because, if I did, then let me just take that right back. I thought that maybe I could like him, because I had been texting him and he wasn't annoying me. But the thing was, it's because I wasn't face to face with him. How did I figure this out? Well, because their church has revival this week and I went last night, and I met him in Marshville and I rode with him to church. So yeah. And he annoyed me. Like here's what he does... He'll say stuff and he apparently thinks it's funny, so he laughs at it, but he's the only one laughing, because it's really not that funny. And it's like no. You need to hush. But yeah. As far as a friend to text and stuff, he's fine. Lol. But yeah. So anyway, bleh. ok well I guess I'll talk to you later. 

Mission trip to Mississippi... and other things..

ok so i’m sitting here typing on my computer because I feel like it. I could normally go on my blog and tell about what I’m feeling, but unfortunately there was a big fat storm last night and it knocked out the internet. STupid. But whatever, I’m going to talk like I’m updating my blog. So, recently, my friend Lauren came back into my life. I knew her from volleyball. Her team played against mine. ANyway, she came to my church. I spent the night with her one night and went to a rodeo with her. Hahaha. Yeah. For real. A rodeo. It was actually interesting. SO anyway. Then her mom asked me if I wanted to go on a mission trip with them that their church is going on. They were going to Mississippi. So I didn’t know what to do because I could go because I didn’t have to pay for anything. The trip was payed for. All I had to pay for was food on the way up there and back. But I didn’t want to go. But I prayed about it and God showed me that I should go. SO I went, but I still didn’t want to. I was dreading going. But I ended up going and having this awesome time and being so glad I went and not even wanting to go home. SO here’s what happened. I ended up having the nick name “Mo” down there because there was this other girl named Erika there and it was confusing when people would call her and I thought they were talking to me. So anyway, my friend Kaitlyn came up with it. Me and her and Lauren were standing around talking and she found out Lauren’s middle name was Jo. Then she asked what my middle name was and I said Morgan and she goes “MO!” and laughs. Lol. SO that’s how that happened. ok well Kaitlyn and her brother, Matt, are actually Randy Travis’ niece and nephew. And Matt started liking me. But he is very very very country. And, I am so not into that. But he would flirt with me and stuff. Like when we swam in the ocean, he would pick me up and throw me back into the water. Then one time I was actually on the shore, and he came and picked me up and carried me into the ocean and put me down. Then another time I was walking outside the church where we stayed talking on the phone with my mom, and he came up behind me and just picked me up and carried me around. Lol. So my friend misty told me that he liked me and wanted to ask me out. But I told misty that I don’t like him that way and that he’s not my type. So she told Matt not to ask me out, but he told her that he was still going to ask me anyway. So, the last night we were there, Matt asked me out. He asked me if I wanted to do something the Sunday after we got back from the mission trip. And really I made excuses because I could have done something with him Sunday afternoon after church, but I told him I had to do lights at my church Sunday morning and Sunday night and that I might go to snap after that. And then he asked about Monday night. Lol. So I farted around and didn’t answer him and then it was time to go to bed and he told me that I could answer him the next day, and I just said that it was sweet that he wanted to do that, but that I honestly didn’t want to and that I wasn’t trying to be hateful. And he was like that’s ok. So yeah. But we have been texting ever since we got home, and it’s really weird. Like I’m trying to figure out if I might like him a little bit. seriously. Maybe it’s just because I’m lonely. But he has the ridiculous mustache that I hate. I mean he might actually be cute if he didn’t have that disgusting thing on his face. Like I wonder what he looks like. But the thing is, I wouldn’t ever want to actually go out with him because I would be too ashamed to be seen with him. HAHAHAHA. I know that’s so bad and mean, but I mean he is so far from my type that it’s not even funny. I mean I would be embarrassed to be seen with this mustache-clad, country, big-belt-buckle-wearing, guy. Sorry. But yeah.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can't figure out my brain right now. I am so glad God knows what's going on. Man things are confusing. Ok so that last blog was about my manicure and that guy I met. SO here I am, with that happening with this guy, and guess who shows up in the picture... again? C. Yeah that's right. It's him. I'm only using the letter of his name for secretive purposes. Because... yeah. Anyway. SO he shows up again. And that's not all. I thought he had a girlfriend, and he did, but he informed me that they broke up about a week earlier. hahahahah. Man. This is sooooo interesting. ISn't it? anyway... yeah. and he acts kinda like he wants me to think that he likes me. hahahaha.  ok so anyway... talk to you guys later.

oh boy....

ok I have decided to blog because I feel like typing. Also I have things to talk about as well. First of all, tonight my family went out to dinner, and we went to the captain's galley. It's a seafood place. Anywho. So I saw this dude when we went in there, and he was pretty cute. He was super super tall and he reminded me of Andrew Talbot because he had this baby-face. Anyway. So he ended up being our waiter. And he was nice, but shy. He was quite. Anyway, I overheard him talking to these people at this other table that he was also taking care of and the table was right next to ours. I heard him talking about school and I heard him say he had been to all different kinds of schools like public school and private school, but I also heard him say Christian school. Ok well, I was like hmm. So I told my mom I heard him say that and of course we had already realized that he was cute (haha). and she told my dad. Ok well I was like thinking, and I didn't know how I was going to say anything, but I really wasn't planning on asking him about it. ANyway, he came back to our table for whatever, and my dad was like "oh, I didn't mean to eavesdrop on your conversation but I heard you say you went to CHristian school" and he's like "yeah" and my dad's like "where" and he told him it was some place, but it was like out of state. we kept talking and he informed us that he had moved around a lot to different states. and he said that his parents were missionaries! i was like oh! haha and he told us he is home from college for the summer and that he was actually looking for a church to come to while he was down!!! :DDDD  so anyway, of COURSE we told him about Lee Park and he might call us so we can tell him how to get there because he lives in waxhaw and doesn't really know his way around monroe. MAYBE. lol. but anyway. he is also going to school for education and history. like he wants to teach high school or middle school history. I thought that was cool. Anyway. He is really cute. We asked if he had a facebook and he said he didn't. he said he used to have one but he deleted it. he also said something about "my girlfriend" so who knows? but anyway, that was really cool that we met a fellow-Christian (at least I assume he's a Christian, but you know). So that was that. Ok, now I have to tell you about what we did after that. I have never in my entire life had my nails done professionally. Seriously. I'm like almost 19 stinking years old and never had a manicure. So momma took me and natalie tonight to get our nails done. WELL, let me TELL you, it was so cool. That lady did my nails up right. She fixed them and put this cuticle gel stuff on them to soften the cuticles so she could push them back and trim them off and she put my hands in these little heated pouches. It was cool. I probably sound like a dork saying what she did because it's like duh, of course she would do that if she's giving you a manicure, but you have to keep in mind that I have never had this done before. It was all new to me. SO anyway, well natalie got a manicure which was $12 and I got this nail art stuff and I didn't mean for it to cost all this much more, but mine was $20, but they are CUTE! and momma got a french pedicure, so altogether momma spent $57. I was like dang. But she said it was okay because we splurged. Ok so now I am going to describe my nails to you. On  all my fingers except my ring fingers, I have this green polish and this pink polish that looks like zebra stripes and then this silver glittery stripes she put down them. On the ring fingers, I have a kind of diagonal line between my nail where half is that green color and the other half is white, then down the white part of those nails, she did black zebra stripes and the silvery glitter. You should SEE THEM. They is CUUUTE! SO anyway. Yay. my first ever professional manicure. And I'm 18 stinking years old. HAHHAHA ok well anyway that was the latter part of may day. I felt like typing on my computer, so I blogged, plus, like I said, I had those things to tell. lol.

ANway, I'll blog some more later.

Erika

Yay. Guess what? I'm blogging again.  Woo hoo.  Ok so have you guys ever heard of Owl City? My friend got me hooked on them and they beast. Actually I shouldn't say them, I should say him because it might just be one guy who sings. Anyway, I don't know what his name is but yeah. They beast. Ok so I am going to go now. Talk to you people latah!

Erika

ok so..... I don't know if anyone gets on here anymore, or if anyone is paying attention to me but I don't care!  I want to blog, so I am blogging. Not that anyone paid attention to me anyway, but whatever. Ok so guess what? It's like Friday morning like about half an hour after midnight. So no I have not gone to bed yet. Ha. But anyway.  This is not just any Friday. This is the first Friday of the summer!!! YES, my dears! It is summer-time!  WOOT!  I made it through Monday - the last day of class. I had a quiz in my World Civ class, and the wonderful awesome Hamlet paper and efolio due in Ms. Frailly's class......  Ok why am I talking about class?  I am out of class! It is the summer!  Oh goodness! Woo! lol. Maybe it's just habit.  haha. Ok so what do I want to talk about?  I have yet to do anything this summer. I have applied for a job and slept late but that about covers it for stuff out of the norm. Oh wait, today I colored the bottom of my hair blonde.  Yeah. Pretty cool! i want more though. More blonde!  I want it to look pretty out there.  haha. But yeah that's me.  I am about to take a shower, and then have my Bible time and go to bed. I have to finish another application tomorrow. Job app that is. It's for CVS.  I wonder if Ross will call me... or CVS???  Hmm..   Guess we'll wait and find out, but I might keep you updated. lol. Ok so I know I blog about random things but sometimes I feel like typing to that's why I'm going to keep my blog.  Wonder what people are doing this summer? I know some people are taking classes.... help them.  Lol. I might go crazy if I knew I had to do that. Ugh.  But anyway... Ok well ttyl

Erika